09-03-2016, 08:01 AM
Peter, Thanks much for your empathetic response to my post and to my plan to save the world! While that hubristic/idealistic scheme alarmed
people, even though I meant well, I was also in a bad way physically and psychologically due to what the doctor in Sam Fuller's film
MERRILL'S MARAUDERS diagnoses as "AOE -- Accumulation of Everything." Years of family turmoil, abuse
in grade school and high school, and Catholic sexual repression took their toll as I headed into my perilous adolescent
years. The JFK assassination also shook me profoundly when I was a junior in high school, shattering my faith in our government and changing
my ambition from politician to writer (working for JFK had inspired me to follow in his
footsteps, but instead I turned to studying his assassination as a lifelong mission). That disillusionment coincided with my loss of faith in the church. My entire
false foundational system collapsed. So the breakdown -- manifested
by my plan to save the world, partly a cry for help to my mother, who was off covering LBJ's 1965 inauguration --
was a blessing in disguise, the best thing that ever happened to me.
people, even though I meant well, I was also in a bad way physically and psychologically due to what the doctor in Sam Fuller's film
MERRILL'S MARAUDERS diagnoses as "AOE -- Accumulation of Everything." Years of family turmoil, abuse
in grade school and high school, and Catholic sexual repression took their toll as I headed into my perilous adolescent
years. The JFK assassination also shook me profoundly when I was a junior in high school, shattering my faith in our government and changing
my ambition from politician to writer (working for JFK had inspired me to follow in his
footsteps, but instead I turned to studying his assassination as a lifelong mission). That disillusionment coincided with my loss of faith in the church. My entire
false foundational system collapsed. So the breakdown -- manifested
by my plan to save the world, partly a cry for help to my mother, who was off covering LBJ's 1965 inauguration --
was a blessing in disguise, the best thing that ever happened to me.